Purity... looking back

This may be a touchy subject for those who are too scared to admit that they have problems with this.. On the other hand, I am going to dive right in.

Purity is something I've struggled with from day one. This started when I was in middle school, realizing that girls were becoming desirable to me. The fact was, I wasn't exactly the most desirable person myself. I didn't prepare myself to be ready for the most beautiful girl in the world to come into my life, so she didn't. Things like these situations led to me feeling inadequate, so I resorted to bad decisions judgmentally. This mainly included dating people that weren't right for me, etc.

I knew what purity was, God's desire for my purity, but I wasn't fully convinced. I lived life as if I would go with whatever came up in a situation. In 9th grade, I started drinking and such, so my judgment decreased even further. After a few kiss-less relationships, I wondered what it'd be like to experience something more than a friendship with hugs, in essence. This led to compromise: not necessarily of sexual proportions, but of the fact that I was settling for mediocre or something that wasn't right for me.

When I started college, judgment was at an even worse downfall. I was popping pills, smoking marijuana, and drinking. Around this time, I was pretty aware of my attractiveness and who would go after someone like me. The problem was that these weren't exactly the right girls. They were willing to sacrifice their purity for anyone and anything. In February 2005, this all changed for me. I truly repented and was saved from that point on. I withdrew from my harmful friendships, quit drugs and smoking, and was able to follow God with more strength and vitality than ever.

This isn't where the story ends, folks.. I still struggle with earthly desires. I'm still imperfect.. And it's still a work in progress.

The best advice I can give you (guy or girl) is to wait until you know exactly what you're doing to get involved with someone of the opposite sex. Not just sexually, but emotionally and mentally as well. Don't mess around when it's not what God wants for you. Just think of the "leftovers" that your spouse will be receiving after you've done all that you have.


Sorry for the length of this post, but I thought I'd be real with you guys. I feel no need to hide behind a cloak of sin-safety. On the contrary, James 5:16 says for me to confess my sins to you so that you can pray for me.

Please pray that I'll maintain chastity and purity from here on out. It would mean a ton in order for God to carry out the ministry He's called me to.


Thanks
MG