I remember being a child, not having a ridiculous amount of pressure on me to be who I am growing up to be. Goals were never unreachable, and I never got rejected from things such as jobs and such. Then I started to realize as I think about this... would I change a thing? Aren't things the way they're supposed to be?
The answer to changing anything would be "no." I've never thought twice about the things that have happened to shape me in this life. I feel as if everything has happened at the appropriate time, so that I'd depend on the love and mercy of God to get through the day. I've developed a small fellowship of Believers who have encouraged and helped me to look up when things aren't going my way. This is allowing me to see who actually cares, and who God has called to be a large part of my life.
Romans chapter 8:28-39 outlines our "destiny," if you will. God works all things for the good of those who love Him, and who've been called according to His purpose. We often forget that the Bible says more than one key verse.. It goes on to talk about Him knowing about being conformed to human's likeness, etc... We are MORE than conquerors of every hardship and famine; every danger and persecution..
I am forever challenged and broken by the fact that I don't live life as if nothing else matters but God. I cannot seriously sit here and tell you I believe the whole Bible. The reason I say that is not because I don't think it's true. It's because WHO LIVES IT OUT??? No one, to the full, would be that answer. We must believe as if God did what He said He did and is still alive and active in our hearts.
Please pray for my spiritual condition, because it's hard as mess to have a calling that God's given me for ministry. This truth is because sometimes, you have to let go of everything you have--even your own life--for the Gospel. I haven't been seeking Christ the way I should lately, and I need to pursue the One who first pursued me.
Love you guys
Michael